Monday, May 2, 2011

admission

I know this is not the sweetest thing to tell...
but hey i think you never thought of me as sweet in the first place...
and please don't laugh at my lame attempt to tell you how i feel:

I never ever ever (ever) liked you.
I never imagined you + me.
and I never thought you'd like me.

but you got my attention with that message (yeah that epic  facebook msg)
only to know that it was addressed not only to me;
just imagine how disappointed i was. (argh)

I thought it was safe, that you were safe, only to realize it's never safe with you.

It was like jumping into a cold lake.
it stings you at first, makes you shiver,
then you'd feel comfortable...
and when you try to get out of the water,
you'd want to get back in.

adik.

I hate you for being so demanding.
And how you appear smart with your witty comebacks.
I hate you because you appear so righteous.
And how I feel like NOT the victim.

HAHA!

But I cannot help but wonder...
and want to wonder more...
can we really make it?

because i want to...

You always tell me not to give up.
I don't have any freaking plans to give up.
Please don't change your mind and heart... (at least with the I want it to be YOU)
Because I'm pretty sure I want to know and see and like and love and want and need you
everyday...

(every freaking day, and night, and you for the rest of my life - sounds familiar?)

and sorry for not going where i said i would go (greenhills)
PERO i got hurt when you told me "hanggang salita lang ako"
i admit my mistake. sorry.
at least ako pag nag so-sorry I really mean it without any sarcasm. (unlike someone i know)
TSK end of convo. hahaha! world peace :)

with the issue of tyranny (this is sooo weird)...
i see you have a tendency to push what you want and use your kakulitan as an advantage. persistent ba... parang what-i-want-i-get-attitude, right now. no excuses. -  authoritative... thus with the term tyranny. (feel free to rebut -kung mababasa mo to')

please don't tell me di ka na hihingi ng favor sakin...
kasi gusto ko sana...
na sakin ka humihingi ng favor...

tsaka yung msg na may breakfast everyday
(sana di ka na offend... di ko lam kung bakit yun yung specific na sinend ko pero natawa kasi ako nun... I thought I'd share it with you...)

PS I love you (maganda yung movie na yan :D )