re-living emotions (53 minutes after valentines day)

A post Valentines day entry.

What happened in the last 8 minutes before the end of February 14. (bull. no. 2)

I look like Rudolph, the one on the Christmas song, who, with Santa Claus, flew in the sky. And yes, he's the one with the red nose. As far as I can remember, the last time that I had this kind of 'cry' was when I broke my heart years ago.

A summary of what transpired today are as follows:

1. When you love, you push yourself to the limit.
    Kaninang umaga, sinabi sakin ni mama na bumili ng empanada dahil gusto ni dad... dapat nung lunch bibili ako, pero since nag lunch out kami nina Ms. Beth, hindi na ko nakabili ng empanada sa Red Ribbon. Before umuwi, nalaman kong wala palang binebentang empanada sa Red Ribbon Shangri-La kaya sa Megamall nalang ako bumili... last 20 mins before closing time. Hindi ko first time naramdaman, pero nung time na yun parang pinapaalala sakin na, basta mahal mo, kayang ipilit kung may ipipilit pa kasi para sayo, makita silang masaya, masaya ka na din :)

2. When you love, you understand.
    Masaya ako nung nalaman kong may oras kami ni Lorenzo na mag usap. Pagkatapos ng konting Tetris battle kung saan sa halos lahat ng laban ay talo ako, pareho kaming may kinailangan munang gawin pansamantala... umaasa akong pagkatapos ng 20 minuto, makakausap ko na siya ulit pero lumabas na pala siya kasama yung mga kaibigan niya... Hindi ko ipag kakaila na sobra akong nasaktan... Maliit na bagay? siguro... pero pag naisip mong konti lang yung oras ninyo at malayo pa kayo sa isa't isa... nakakalungkot. Nakakalungkot pero hindi nakakagalit...

3. When you love, you stick with them.
    Dahil Valentines, talamak ang mga date... romantic, friendly, familial, etc... so on and so forth. Nakatanggap din naman ako ng dalawang invitation para kumain sa labas ngayong araw na ito... Siguro kung ganun ako karupok, (brewrats term) sinabi ko nalang na sure, friendly date lang naman, tutal Vatentines... :) Maraming bagay akong pwedeng gawin, pag kaabalahan, mga taong samahan... Pero kadalasan, makita mo lang at maalala yung taong talagang mahalaga para sayo, higit mong isinaaalang alang kung ano yung mararamdaman niya sa bawat kilos na ginagawa mo (and yes, I learned my lesson).

Sometimes we forget, that's why we are given events to remember what we have learned. Sometimes we need first hand experience for us to be able to learn what we haven't yet. Sometimes things repeat itself so that we could finally learn what we refuse to. And sometimes we need to go through things even though it hurts so that what we learned from the heart can be learned by the ones dear to us.

Definitely not the most kilig valentines day, but still somewhat meaningful.

Love has its own reasons that even reason cannot understand :)